Birds From Space!

i have a fish now. i guess his name is Crunchwrap Supreme. Or Fishcray McFillet. Or maybe its DJ Meow Meow. whatever his name is, i have a fishy now.

I changed his water today. That wasnt fun. i prepared a little mini tank for him so he could be comfy while i cleaned his main tank. but he wouldnt stay in the ladle i was using to scoop him out of the tank. so i had to pick him with my hand. gently of course, but i really scared him. he’s fine, but it upset me. really freaked me out. over the last week, i’ve gotten really really attached to this little guy. i thought i hurt him. 

he’s swimming around in his clean tank now. i keep the water warm so he’s much happier than most bettas. a lot of owners dont understand that just because they can live in cold water, they’re still tropical fish and like it at 80 degrees. so i have an active happy little fish. i wish his tank was bigger though. 

is it selfish to have him? it might be. he needs more space and a filter to live a full life. but actually, i’m giving him a better life than most of the stupid assholes that buy bettas and dont take care of them. 

i’m dwelling on something i dont need to dwell on. i just thought i’d hurt him. i got really scared.

alcohol is fun. there’s no doubt about that. its really fun. like, the most fun. but its also the most soul crushingly awful thing you can buy at a grocery store. 

alcohol makes parties cool. it makes you care less about how you look. it makes you funnier.

alcohol is illegal on college campuses and if you get caught with it while living in the dorms you’re sort of fucked.

the people you live with are fucked too. did you bring booze into their house? awesome. well now you’ve made them equally responsable for it even if they weren’t part of the party. thanks, man!

i’m bitter. last night sucked. 

it’ll all be okay. i’m fine. i’ll speak to the RA and let her know i’m mostly sober and had nothing to do with the planning of the party, the buying of the beer or the smoking of the weed. 

jesus christ. how did it happen that i became the most responsible person in my social circle?